Way back in January, when I first started this daily challenge, I came across a comment on one of Nicolas Cole’s post.
It was from someone who had been sitting on a rough draft of their first Medium post for over a week. They said they had shown it to their family and friends and had received amazing feedback, yet they were still looking for the confidence to publish it.
I commented and said, “I’m sure it’ll be great, I’d love to read it,” hoping to give them an extra boost.
My first Medium post wasn’t particularly hard for me but, my first podcast episode…that definitely was.
Even now it’s still not super easy.
Every time I log onto Anchor, I send my cohost a link to join and a little music plays as I’m waiting for him. I swear the moment I hear that elevator music, I have a mini panic inside and want to hang up the chat.
Today I was running late, didn’t have any notes written and had done only a quick 5-minute read of the post we were going to be discussing. All I could think before we started was,
“Wait, what am I saying for the intro again?”
I mean technically, we can go back in and restart it, but the whole point is to jump in, get the episode done and publish it without edits. And that’s what we’ve done minus the exception of some minor tech issues.
Today, we even published an episode that neither of us has listened to yet.
But you know what?
I’m not bothered by it.
It feels good, it feels like freedom.
“Everything you’ve ever wanted is on the other side of fear.”
The person from Medium, whom I mentioned at the beginning of this post… well, I went back and checked their profile today.
I don’t know if they ever published the post they were originally talking about, but they do have some posts out.
It made me smile when I saw that because it means they overcame their fear and took the first step.
I can’t think of anything that I really want to do that I wouldn’t do because of fear. I might have to think about that a little more, but for the most part, I have come to terms with the fact that I don’t need the confidence to start, I don’t need to feel comfortable, and I don’t even need to be great at first.
I just need to start.