August 24th, 2017.
That was the first day I wrote on Medium. It was 136 days before my 30th birthday and the day I started my daily writing challenge.
I was still in Costa Rica then.
I remember it being late in the evening and as I was in bed leaning back on my pillow there was a nagging in the back of my head reminding me I said I would start writing. All I wanted to do was sleep but after 15 minutes of fighting it I had opened up my laptop and wrote my first post.
I figured what better way to start than when it’s the hardest.
Today I scrolled back in my feed and found that post. I was expecting it to be cringeworthy but surprisingly it’s not and it’s actually interesting reading my perspective from back then.
Only a little over 9 months have passed, but I’ve grown a lot.
The week following that first post, I had written just a few more before I quit writing for 4 months.
Although I don’t recall exactly why I stopped, it’s clear I lost focus. Likely I was distracted because in part I was already living my dream.
It was only when we arrived back to the US on December 12th and were jolted by the cold winter air, that I knew I had to do whatever I had to do to make my dream a permanent reality.
Last week, I heard a Gary Vee video that I must have replayed 10X.
The main message was:
“Take a step backward to take a step forward for the rest of your life.”
Since I’ve returned to the States, I have not repurchased a car, I am not in my most ideal living situation, I do not hang out with my friends, and I rarely go out.
I take care of my kids, write 2 hours a day, podcast for an hour a day, do my other work and then I repeat it every single day.
I’m not bothered that I wake up at odd hours of the morning to work around my kids schedules. I’m okay with missing out on my 5 hour Netflix binges and all night conversations with my girlfriends.
If you know my life before, even from what it was last year in Costa Rica, you will know I have taken a huge voluntary step backward in anticipation that I will keep my head down, work hard and ultimately take a step forward for the rest of my life.
It would be easy for me to get a full-time accounting job with a decent paycheck, a nice apartment, new car, and other little luxuries but all of that would be short-term and I would quickly tire of it.
What I want requires me to take this step backward in order to step into the life that I want.
What separates most of us from our dreams is not as much as we think.
Yesterday, I was scrolling through a few Instagram stories and I came across one that caught my eye.
If you had told me 5 years ago that all that separated me from the life I wanted was two years of showing up, it may have brought things into perspective.
It’s all a numbers game.
All that needs to happen for me to create the life I want is to put in the work every day.
In the end, these short-term sacrifices will be insignificant to the long-term gains.
Thanks for reading ❤