These past two days, I’ve been quite exhausted. I had a podcast interview with someone in Kenya last night and it was an awkward hour of the day for both of us.
7 am her time, midnight over here.
We were both tired.
The day before I had an interview at 10 pm. I was on the phone earlier today and I wasn’t much of a conversationalist.
Man, I need to catch up on my sleep. And I will… tonight.
I’ve even taken a break from my regular work today.
Sometimes in the midst of doing all these things, especially when I’m tired, the thought that I am trying to navigate having two little ones, work, write, podcast and have a business, is that I’m crazy. Like, “What the heck am I doing??”
But despite a couple of tiring days here and there, I’m realizing I actually love what I do.
A few days ago I was excitedly talking to someone about writing on Medium. Their response:
“Are you getting paid to do this?”
“Paid?..No?” I said.
They shook their head in disdain.
Initially, I thought, “Why are they being so negative?”
But then I realized it must seem like an odd thing to see someone essentially “working for free”. I mean, after all, this stuff is work. It does take effort.
Plenty of people don’t like writing and if they did, they certainly can’t imagine writing every day. So I could see how it may appear a little absurd.
I used to work customer service for a number of years and you would never catch me doing that type of work for free.
That’s why I know I love what I do because I don’t think twice about what I’m getting out of it.
I’m also not looking at this short-term.
Farmers don’t avoid planting seeds months in advance of the harvest because they’re afraid they won’t bear fruit. They know the seed will grow and one day they will reap what they’ve sown.
My thinking is the same.
In my gut, I know it’s already being paid in the future, so I don’t worry about it today. Right now, I am just focused on doing what I love and putting my best work forth.
Thank you for reading ❤