Who Am I? The Real Me vs. The World Me
Two days ago, I wrote the post, “I Finally Got the Answer I Was Looking For.”
I said the answer I was looking for, I already had it… which is a bit confusing. How did I have the answer and not know it?
There’s a small voice that’s been speaking to me a lot lately. That voice is the soul of me. And then there’s the voice that’s been crafted over the past 30 years and that is the world me.
The world me has been shaped by the media, the church, the education system, friends, and yes even my own family.
The world me is often a problem. The world me used to want to debate Democrat vs Republican, gay vs straight, Christianity vs other religions.
The world me gets caught up in things that have nothing to do with the soul of me.
I’m not religious, but I often find things from religion to be personal truths. Like this verse,
“Be in this world but not of it.”
Growing up, I always thought,
“Oh, I’m religious, that means I’m not worldly.”
But I was far from the truth, it’s beyond religion. Now when I hear that, for me, it means I have to follow my true path, not the systemic one.
And the latter is hard to fight against. I lost to it for 20 something odd years until the small voice said,
“This is not me.”
There’s a line from my favorite book, “The Master Key System.”
“Life is an unfoldment, not an accretion. What comes to us in the world without is what we already possess in the world within.”
We already have the truth and we already have the answers we are seeking. It all becomes clear over time.
You know how they say,
“You can lead a horse to the water, but you can’t make it drink it”?
It’s like being in a bad relationship while everyone is saying,
“It’s time to leave,”
but it falls upon deaf ears.
We can only receive the answer when we’re ready and everyone must reach the truth in their own manner.
I’ll admit, I still have my biases that need to be dissembled.
I had a conversation today, where I found myself debating a topic with some rebuttals that I probably formed from some information I learned on the internet. I had to stop myself and ask,
“Why does this even matter and what does this have to do with where I am trying to go in life?”
The soul of me wants to do what matters. So I’m trying to get back to it. All I have to do is listen and work towards living all aspects of my life according to the true me.
Thank you for reading!