Why My Happiness Must Come From Within

Writer | Entrepreneur | Business & Personal Development

Relationships.

I used to seek out happiness in relationships.

If things were good, I was on cloud nine. If things were bad, my whole world would come unhinged. I’m talking missing days of work and going into periods of immense sadness over relationships that I ended. And then I would be easily convinced to “try things again” because being with someone was better than being by myself and dealing with my feelings.

But I couldn’t escape forever.

Eventually, I had to look myself in the mirror and ask,

“What are you doing? What the hell are you doing with your life?”

All the compromises I made for a false sense of being whole and happy were not worth it anymore and I had to pop my own delusionary bubble.

Yeah, that hurt for a bit.

But I was okay. It didn’t kill me. It made me stronger and I learned I could be alone and actually be really happy, not fake happy. I just had to create the happiness myself.

So I did.

I put my head down, stayed in my lane and focused on my goals. I gained back my energy and my happiness and satisfaction in life increased a hundred-fold.

And that’s not to say there were never mistakes. The universe always gives a test and there were times that I failed. But with each failure I learned and by now I’ve been kicked in the butt so many times that I think I’m truly in a great place.

My happiness starts from within now and that’s a hard thing to shake.

 

Thank you for reading!

❤ Aleesha

Day 172

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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